Lyrics and stuff.

Budapest- George Ezra
My many artifacts
The list goes on
If you just say the words
I’ll up and run


Atlas- Shannon Saunders

Your shoulder blades
Your eyes ablaze
The way you throw your head back
When you're losing faith
But finding hope
It lights your face
That helps me cope
Through all of this without a kiss
And I get through all of this without a kiss

From the atlas
Take me far
Leave me reckless
Off the map
Turn the paper
Don't bring me back

My eyes see you
I see you but you don't see me

Holding On To You- Twenty One Pilots

You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night,
Right? Fight it, take the pain, ignite it,
Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it,
To a tree, tell it, "You belong to me,
This ain't a noose, this is a leash,
And I have news for you, you must obey me."

Fairly Local- Twenty One Pilots

Tomorrow I'll switch the beat

to avoid yesterdays dance.

Windows- Lewis Watson

I'm sleeping with a pillow, under lamplight.
Freezing cold, 'cause you always liked the windows
Opened wide.
Just so you know, I'll be here when you make it home.

I'll call you up at like 3am, again
Just to make sure you know that I don't mind waiting,
Although the call will end with us both saying
That we both hate this

Just What I Needed- The Cars

I don't mind you coming here

and wasting all my time

Irony of Choking on a Lifesaver- All Time Low

You're the snake hidden in my daffodils
When I'm picking flowers
That's just my luck these days
Why can't you just be happy for me?
You're the break-lights failing as my car
Swerves off the freeway
It kinda feels like sabotage


Slow- Halsey & Lido
'Cause there's a flaw in the system
I don't really know what but I miss him
It was something in his eyes when I kissed him
Listen, feeling like I can't dismiss him


I Will Follow You Into The Dark- Death Cab For Cutie
If Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark


Colors- Halsey
Your little brother never tells you but he loves you so
You said your mother only smiled on her TV show
You’re only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope
I hope you make it to the day you’re 28 years old

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise
You’re spilling like an overflowing sink
You’re ripped at every edge but you’re a masterpiece
And I’m tearing through the pages and the ink

Everything is blue
His pills, his hands, his jeans
And now I’m covered in the colors
Pulled apart at the seams
And it's blue
And it's blue

Everything is grey
His hair, his smoke, his dreams
And now he's so devoid of color
He don’t know what it means
And he's blue
And he's blue

You were a vision in the morning when the light came through
I know I’ve only felt religion when I’m lying with you
You said you’ll never be forgiven 'til your boys are, too
And I’m still waking every morning but it’s not with you

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise
You’re spilling like an overflowing sink
You’re ripped at every edge but you’re a masterpiece
And I’m tearing through the pages and the ink

Everything is blue
His pills, his hands, his jeans
And now I’m covered in the colors
Pulled apart at the seams
And it's blue
And it's blue

Everything is grey
His hair, his smoke, his dreams
And now he's so devoid of color
He don’t know what it means
And he's blue
And he's blue

Everything is blue
Everything is blue
Everything is blue
Everything is blue

You were red and you liked me because I was blue
You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky
Then you decided purple just wasn’t for you

Moondust- Jaymes Young

The brightness of the sun, will give me just enough
To bury my love, in the Moondust
I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice
To bury my love, in the moondust

Sculpture

 

I chose the sculpture "Popped Up" by Hungarian artist Ervin Loránth Hervé. This sculpture is located in Budapest. The thing popping out of the ground is an ogre. I like it because it incorporates the land around it. I also like how it proved some shade. I think its a really cool concept of having it look like hes pulling up the ground. It kind of makes you forget that he is actually above ground and not pulling the ground up. I also like how it involves a sort of fantasy theme.

Art Walk

I couldn't find the piece I had online so this is a painting that was painted with coffee since that's what the original one reminded me of.

I used to hate coffee. I never understood why people thought it tasted good. I probably swore a thousand times I would never like coffee. But here I am. Most of the times when I feel truly happy is when I drink coffee with my friend Maynard. I'm very talkative and she is too. We are very similar. When we are together we are usually drinking coffee. Our favorite place to go is Classic Rock Coffee. We think it's funny because usually the other people there are dads or people in their 40's.

The thing I liked about the original painting I had looked at was that it looked like an accident. It looked maybe someone spilled their coffee and said "hey that's cool". It was kind of comforting to look at because it wasn't perfect and sometimes the colors overlapped. I guess a better way to phrase it would be to say it made me feel relieved. Yes it was messy. No it wasn't perfect but it was nice and it was art. It doesn't have to be perfectly and masterfully executed. That's life.

Poems for Paintings

I'm trying to think of rational ways to tell you 

that you have become my universe.

How do you tell someone that they pull you together completely?

That they keep you in orbit.

That they created the tides that tug at your insides.

You can't.

Because what if it all unhinges, 

and your planets aren't aligned?

And your sun burns out because you relied on it too much?

Now it's all dark and you can't even see the stars in their eyes anymore.

Sometimes the world might feel too big for you.

When you're standing in large crowd.

When you fly on an airplane.

When you think of far off places.

When you stand at the bottom of a tall building.

It's ok to feel that way.

Anyone can get wrapped up in their life.

Anyone can forget about others.

But sometimes we need to be reminded that the world is big.

Even if its too big sometimes.

Movie Quotes

"You know how everyones always saying seize the moment? I don't know, I'm kind of thinking its the other way around, you know, like the moment seizes us."
-Boyhood

"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light."
-Dumbledore in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

"The world is not a wish granting factory."
-The Fault in Our Stars

"Fire is catching. If we burn, you burn with us."
-Mockingjay Part 1

**Reel** Life

1) My favorite movie is probably Ferris Bueller's Day Off. The first time I watched it I was with my mom. My mom and I always watch movies together.  When she found out I hadn't watched it she was shocked and made me watch it that weekend. I thought I wasn't going to like it because it came from my parents childhood but it turns out I like most of the movies from the 80's. They can be pretty cheesy sometimes but they're ok. I almost cried when I watched ET in Film as Lit. Anyways, I laughed so hard when I watched it and I liked hanging out with my mom.

2) I'm not really into romance movies. I've watched them and some of them make me cry but they all seem so unrealistic to me. They do make me cry so they must be doing something right. I cried 8 times the first time I watched PS I Love You. That movie tore me up.

3) I watch movies a lot. Mostly with my mom when my step dad is out of town. We snuggle up on the couch and watch movies. We don't really make popcorn or anything because I don't like popcorn. We only eat during a movie if we are watching it at dinner time. I usually drink Cherry Coke and she usually drinks Mountain Dew. It makes me really happy when we do that.

4) When I am at the movie theater I usually get cherry coke and candy. I prefer Kazoozles which are cherry flavored candy wrapped around the fun dip sugar. They're sooooo good and usually only at movie theaters. Popcorn makes me feel sick but I usually steal handfuls of some from whoever is with me anyways. It drives everybody insane.

5)
I am 50% extroverted.
I am 100% agreeable.
I am 92% Conscientious.
I am 25% emotionally stable (ouch).
I am 100% open to new experiences.

I would actually agree with these results.

6) Alora said a toned down (in the quirky stuff) Zooey Deschanel. Which I'm ok with because I like Zooey Deschanel and I watch New Girl. It would open with me on a rocket ship. I am the first female astronaut/Singer. I am breaking all norms and performing shows on the moon. Eventually I will settle down on my own private island away from everyone. My whole entire house would be a library and all I would ever do is read. Then I eventually move to New York and get to be around everybody.

Stuff.

I don't know if we're allowed to make random posts on here or not but I've felt like writing all day so I'm going to anyways.

When I first heard about Alzheimers I was told you slowly start forgetting things. I had thought that the people that had it would slowly forget life in a chronological order. As in you would start by forgetting every day things. Then you would think you were in your 40's and then 20's and teen years and so on until you forgot how to breathe. I realize that isn't how it is now. You just forget things that are not constant... and sometimes things are constant. You just forget things randomly. There is no order or set timeline. Yesterday after a long plane ride and a long car ride I arrived at my nana and papas house. I got there and my nana got through all my family members with hugs and smiles and looked utterly confused when she saw me. She kept giving me weird looks. I knew it would happen eventually but I didn't know it would hurt me that much. She remembered everyone else... Even my little brother and sister. She's known me way longer. Anyways, my mom kept dropping hints about who I was and kept saying my name and eventually it came back to her. Now she knows who I am and I feel ok but it still hurts. Sometimes you feel things already but then they happen and they're a reality and you feel so intensely. I'm sitting in the living room of my grandparents house typing this and my nana has said goodnight to me 3 times now because she can't remember she already has. Sometimes it's funny. That sounds bad but thats how I deal with things. Sometimes finding the humor in things makes them less sucky. But it's funny because she's so sweet and oblivious. She'll ask you 3 times in a row if you play basketball and you can give her a different answer every time. Or today my mom asked her if she wanted to go to Red Lobster with us and she said no. My mom jokingly brought it up later that she said no to Red Lobster and my nana got so flustered because "SHE NEVER SAID THAT".  I don't know how to end this post. I just really don't want her to forget me.

6 Word Stories

I always have a protective shell


I try to dance to Beyonce

The "Thing" About Feminism... (Readers as Writers post)

I'm currently reading I Am Malala and feeling very inspired by this book. I think it says a lot about womens rights and gives wonderful insight into what womens lives are like in other places around the world. It has really made me think about feminism. I am already a feminist but this finally gave me room to collect my thoughts enough to say some things I want to.

 The thing about feminism is that you do not have to be the one feeling oppressed. I hear a lot of girls say "I'm just fine so why should I stand up for these 'made up' problems. The ignorance just shocks me. "I'M fine so there MUST NOT BE A PROBLEM" is all I hear. If you feel that you personally do not need feminism, you are wrong, but that is fantastic! Here's the catch, there are more people in this world than you.
 Feminism is also about being able to step outside yourself and think about her, him, and them. It is about standing up for wives being forced into marriages where it is "acceptable" to throw acid on them. It is about little girls who can't have an education because she can ONLY be a wife and mother. It is for boys who are raised to believe that there is something wrong with them if they don't like sports or are told to "man up" when they cry. It is about the women who get in trouble at school for "exposed" shoulders. It is about women being told that they "had it coming" after they got raped. It is about other people. It is about others being oppressed. Let me say it one last time. It is about OTHERS.
Think outside your unproductive bubble. Stretch your mind to care for others.

In the News(papers)

"Equal Justice Under Law"

Yeah... if you're a middle class white male. Sometimes I tend to be a little "down with the man-ish." I think that the justice system is rigged to work in favor of those who have money. 

Dreams Change

I saw this and laughed out loud. I thought it was so funny because these were my aspirations in life at one point. When I was younger I was so positive that I would have THE coolest checks ever. I was so convinced that I would have super cool cartoon checks or kittens or something. My dreams haven't come true yet. I have plain checks. Actually they might be purple. I don't ever have a reason to use them.

The Berenstein Bear Family

The Berenstein Bear family had always been a public figure. The books based off of their life had thrown them out of their regular bear life of cave life and into a mansion worth millions of dollars and an abundance of wealth. One day the whole entire family left a high profile restaurant with spaghetti stains all over their clothes. The paparazzi jumped on this opportunity immediately and all the headlines were calling them the BerenSTAIN Bears. The bears were very embarrassed.

This story was inspired my recent realization that the family's name is actually the Berenstain bears... not the Berenstein.

I found this article really interesting. A 70 year old woman had written into a newspaper about the relationship problems she was having at the time. I thought it was so funny (for lack of a better word) that this lady was having relationship problems. This lady was still putting herself out there and dating. I also liked the Journalists advice about the emotional abuse she was being put through. I understand the confusion that comes along with being psychologically/emotionally manipulated. It is very hard to identify the problem and you are often being left feeling like it's your fault. It is not.

Be a (blog) Reader

I read a few of Aloras blog posts. I liked what she had written about faith. I agree with it. We have talked about it a lot before. I also like the post she had made about The Fault in Our Stars.

Confusing Conclusion Story

"In the town, there were two mutes and they were always together."

They felt misunderstood, and rightfully so. People thought that just because they could not speak that they had no thoughts. This was difficult because when you don't speak you have a lot to listen to. You gather information and you listen to whatever you can. When you have to listen to everything you are bound to form opinions. The two mutes probably would not have been friends otherwise, they were polar opposites. By consequence they were and it made for interesting discussions via sign language. They were extremely smart and well informed. No one really gave them the time of day because barely anyone in the town knew sign language and writing took too long. The boy had always yearned for more than the life he lead. He wanted more friends, more privileges, more people that wanted know what he had to say. The girl was accepting of her fate and easily fell into a pity party. They both had the right to feel the way they did. The boy only communicated with his family, his teacher, and the girl. He was very good at sports. Crazy good. One day he decided he'd had enough and joined a local baseball team. No one talked to him at first but after a few games his popularity soared and he was the talk of the town. People payed attention to him now. They took the time to listen to what he had to write. Everyone found him interesting. The girl sat back idly. She watched as her best and only friend rose to popularity and forgot about her. After a month she'd finally had enough. She decided to move away and start college in a city. The boy never even realized she was gone until one day the local newspapers headlining story was of a mute girl from the town who had graduated with highest honors from Juilliard. He didn't even know she liked music. He finally realized that once you start speaking and get wrapped up in yourself you forget about those around you.

"Don't tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."

Famous First and Last Lines

"In the town, there were two mutes and they were always together."

The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter

By: Carson McCullers (1917-1967)

She wrote this when she was 23 (WHAT??). She was heavily influenced by music and intended on studying music at Julliard until she fell ill. She then changed her mind and studied Creative Writing at Columbia University in New York. 

From what I can tell, this book is about a deaf-mute man making friends with misfits in a small town. He has this other mute friend but she goes crazy. After that happens he goes to this house of the town misfits. The house is owned by a person who is crazy about music. It's based in the 1930's so there is also some racial tension involved.

I would be interested in reading this book. I think it would be cool to read something in a different perspective.  I also think it was written in a very interesting time. Something I would be unsure about is that it is realistic fiction. I have a lot of trouble reading realistic fiction. I can do it, but it is still a challenge.

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody"

The Catcher in the Rye

By: J.D. Salinger (1919-2010)

I didn't know that he was alive in 2010!!! I thought that was really cool for some reason. Salinger really struggled with the newfound fame created by his writing. He became somewhat of a recluse. He grew up in Manhattan, I'm jealous.

The Catcher in the Rye is story about a completely narcissistic teenage boy. He doesn't apply himself in school and flunks out everywhere. He is very smart and conscientious. Even though he has those qualities he tends to exaggerate, contradict himself, and overall just blow smoke. The book is mainly just about a privileged teenage boy trying to figure things out.

I love this book. I chose this as my ending quote because I love it. I feel kinda cliche for loving it but oh well. I recommend this book because I feel like everyone reads it differently. I thought it was satirical and making fun of teenagers for thinking we have it all figured out. Some people I've talked to thought Holden was not the "phony" and that he was a smart cookie. I wouldn't recommend this to someone who is a fan of structure in a story. This book has no plot or exposition.